one of my saddest days

OMG ! WHY AM I SO WEAK ! OMG ! I CRIED IN SCHOOL TODAY. IN FRONT OF SHINYI. Shiny baby really thanks so much for being there when i needed someone to lean on ! :) You hugged me, comforted me and told me ITS OKAY , Stop crying and Tell me what happen :) OMG YOU LIKE AN ANGEL ! :( I feel so sorry for all those bad things I have done to you I ever done to you. True friends ?! What a word. To me, friends and true friends I really don'tknow the meaning ?! Standing there for you forever. I guess I have none. Only my family seems to be there. Then Shiny :) I know she has council and she cannot possiblely stay with me forvever but she tries. OMG I REALLY LOVE HER. Leung, Manda and Zizi. I really don't know. JiaJia i also don't know. LONELY ! :( AND THANKS SAYANG FOR GIVNG ME THAT I DON'T CARE LOOK AND I HATE YOU LOOK ON ONE OF MY SADDEST DAYS. THANKS ALOT ! :) THAT IS NO DIFFERENCE FROM ADDING SALT ON MY WOUND OR KILLING ME :) PAIN ! I lost to the max ! :) I seems to lose everything except family :( No friends, No studies, No class, No nothing. :) And Jung thanks for hating me when I don't even know you. All those shit that you hear too :) What stead man ?! All i did was to like them. Okay I agree that I may be abit too much. But I really have a crush on them. You have a problem with that ?! I NEVER ASK THEM FOR STEAD plz get your facts right ?! I NEVER ASK ANYONE FOR STEAD ! PLEASE ! :( whats wrong with liking someone. OKAY ! :) I SUCK HAPPY ?! SO JUST SHOOOO... DON'T COME HERE AND MAKE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE. THanks alot :)